I’m only happy when I’m on the run
(via still-moving-on)Source: marinakills
Today has been one of the worst days in a LONG time.
My car is fucked and I have no money to pay for it.
Work is insane and I am constantly being yelled at for not doing things that I had no idea were my responsibility.
I can’t make it to school because I don’t have a car.
And honestly I am just so unhappy with how things are turning out that I just want to sleep for years.
I can’t seem to be happy and no matter what I do to try and change it, it doesn’t work.
I miss how things were a year and a half ago.
I miss the way that I was.
I miss him.
I miss my best friend living in the next room.
It all seems so petty and small but to me that is all that really matters, the small, insignificant things.
All I want is for someone to simply care about me and want to be there for me despite all my flaws.
All I want is for everything to be simple.
All I need is to get away and find something new because the past is always in my face here and I can’t escape it or change it.
A lot of things make me sad here but the only solution I can find is to play dumb and just go along with what everyone else wants to do.
All I can do lately is observe.
These all seem like such stupid problems but they aren’t too me.
These are the things that I care about.
I loved you yesterday
I love you still
I always have
Today was the second hardest day to watch someone move out. Now I am left alone in this place. I hate it here but I guess I should get used to be being alone now.
…my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are grey. You’ll never know dear how much I love you. So please don’t take my sunshine away. The other night dear as I lay sleeping, I dreamed I held you in my arms. When I awoke dear I was mistaken and I held my head and cried.